As if I haven't been trying

To pick up a pen while i can't use my hands

To give my fingers rhytm with tones they deny to fathom

To activate my brain while it itches with pain

To see the cursor flickers up until it's hidden by liquor

To make everything makes sense, while I'm already insane

"Write, so you can keep your sanity,"

As if I haven't been dying

To pick up what's left of my piece of mind

To stitch the unpeaceful peace of mine

To burn but never stop to give the shine

To explode but never to whine

"Write, so you can keep your sanity,"

As if I haven't been falling

As if I haven't been fucking trying

So, this is what's come to mind of mine

20 March 2023. Pasha Fatahillah.

For you all ungrateful bastards.