I know. It's not my first time. I know the guilt beneath the shame.

I know that fear. I know it too well.

I dive right in, anyway.

So be it, wet and drown one more time

If it were to happen again.

Juno would rot and wearing her frown upside down.

And Victory will be the thing that makes

My fist wishes it was bigger to grasp her down

Nike flies beside Athena, convincing cupid

That it was a mistake.

Farah and Fatah have received a message,

"Prepare a new grave."

The little sanity whispers to me,

"Do not worry, it only happens in your head."

29 January 2023. Mortuari Firdaus.
MEMENTO VIVERE

Pasha Fatahillah is a writer and "Jack of All Trades" currently observing life from Cambodia. This manuscript is part of a decade-long evolution of thought.

Upcoming Anthology: Evolusi Yang Mati (2016-2026).