She's stuck now between Nietzsche or reviving God in her bed. Between an espresso or a fancy iced coffee with milk and whipped cream on top of it. Between believing or resenting. Between pointing fingers or just blaming the fuck out of herself of everything. Between the old sweet Marlboro or just fucking change the whole pack for the sake of mild dementia. Between doing TikTok dances and any other social media trends or just be a normal unremarkable human. Between killing herself or just live for a while then die in some point in the future of natural causes or fatal accidents.

So, she decided to put her heart on sale in the Internet. Just sort of like her ex-boyfriend used to do. The difference is he shared his heart for free, she's doing it for money; or maybe just don't want anybody read her like a fucking open book like his ex-boyfriend was. There's also a difference between what's inside their hearts.

He arranged his heart to multiple complicated and nonsensical forms, the motives and colours were carefully applied to delivered a message of, "I fucking love her and I praise her for eter-fucking-nity". Despite all of that, he shared his heart to everyone for free; like his heart was always destined to be owned, enjoyed, and exploited by everyone. She hated that.

So, she does it a little bit different now. She's arranging her heart to a single simple form, though it's still nonsensical. The motives and colours are recklessly put into it to deliver a message of, "I hate him and he should fucking die; AND ALSO PLEASE STOP STALKING ME". She's distributing her heart into some kind of paid platform. Purchase some of these so-called 'Key to the Heart' first to see what's inside. None of us know what's her intentions are, she knows nothing either. She just wants to be different from him, I suppose. Or maybe she knows for sure that he won't ever pay to see her heart because he's too fucking poor. We don't know for sure though, it's all just maybe. She also hasn't made any choice in those betweens.

13/12/2020. They're both fucked.